Friday, June 25, 2010

praying...

Since my last post I've seen my normal GP. She felt for bub and said she was head down. Then a moment later she felt again, and baby had moved to the side! She was then on the diagonal, with her butt under my right rib, and head down near my left hip! This is classified as an 'unstable lie' where she is somewhere between head down, and transverse, often switching between the two. This can be just as bad as transverse because if I do go in to labour, thinking she's head down, she might move, which will mean an emergency caesar. So I'm really hoping, praying actually, that on monday the scan will show her in a definite position (either transverse or breech) that will cause the OB to book me in for a caesar. It's not something I want to risk, and I couldn't spend the next 4 weeks waiting for labour to start, hoping that she's ok. I'd have to go straight to hospital, and be monitored constantly. It would be very stressful. And if she keeps flipping around, the cord could wrap around her neck, which is bad both inside the womb, and also in delivery. I've been googling it and have read enough to feel very strongly that an elective caesar is the best way to go for us.
Now I'm just praying for an obvious position in the scan where the OB will want to book me in for a caesar within a few days. I can get Kristal over here quickly and it can all be over and I can know that she is safe and sound on the outside, where I can protect her.
Praying praying praying...
Please Lord, this really is the best thing for me and my girl, You've brought us this far xx

Thursday, June 17, 2010

cheeky baby

I had my scan yesterday. She is perfect. Growing like a weed actually! She's gained 2 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks! And all over is measuring between 37-38 weeks, but I'm only 35 1/2 weeks :P goodness me. Oh and her estimated weight is 7 1/2 pounds!!! SD ratio was perfect, and she's obviously getting the nutrients she needed, so all good on that front.

However. The little miss has moved. Yep. After being in the perfect position for most of the 3rd trimester, she's gone and moved into a transverse position - worse than breech - where her head is under my left rib, her bum is under my right rib, and her feet are on my cervix. Awesome. And she's unlikely to move. She's obviously done it because she's running out of room, and is more comfortable where she is now, which is totally understandable, I mean, fair enough girl! So if we did move her (which Sandie assures me they wouldn't because it's painful and dangerous) there's a good chance she'll just move right back because she'll be uncomfortable. So that means a caesar for me. Far out. So much for coming to peace (after desperately wanting a caesar for the first two years after having Jordan!) with a natural birth. I'd even decided on a waterbirth, with accupuncture! But this isn't meant to be. And last night I was feeling ok about it. But this morning I woke up feeling tight in the chest and panicky and I couldn't get a proper breath. I ended up getting up early with Jordan, making a hot chocolate, and vegemite on toast. Which has made me feel less nauseas but I'm still anxious. Ugh. This sucks. So I'm now asking friends who have had great caesars to tell me their stories to try and alleviate the nerves. I so hope they'll get this over with soon. Sandie thinks they'll book me in at 37 weeks, which is a week from Monday. On Monday I have my normal 36 week checkup and the hospital doctor will probably book me in for the following Monday, or sometime shortly after. Because it's such a dangerous position for her to be in if I to go in to labour, they can't risk it by making it closer to 39 weeks which is what they'd do for a baby who is in the standard breech position. So this could all be over with in about 10 days!!

As for the strong contractions I was having the other night, turns out they were her moving position. No wonder. It was just so bizarre to be in that room again, and hearing the guy tell me that she's transverse. Two days earlier I was at the hospital, on monitors, checking everything out and she was head down! The midwife felt her! Less than 48 hours later I'm told she's moved. I know that this is God's plan, and I trust that. And I do have peace knowing this is what needs to be done, I really do. I'm just freaking out about the procedure that's all. Oh God, help me.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

almost time

I've been having some very strong braxton hicks contractions tonight. Quite a bit like bad period pain. With some backache. Good sign.

I have my scan tomorrow (my 7th for this pregnancy!!) and should know what's going on with the SD ratio (umbillical cord). If all is fine and bub is growing and the cord looks good then I guess they wont see the need to scan again, if not, then I suppose they'll book me in for another scan and compare again and take it from there.

I have complete peace about it all though, just as I have from the very start, even before I knew I was pregnant. This baby will be perfect when she's born. Absolutely perfect. And I can't wait to meet my sweet little thing!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

35 weeks!!

Wow, I haven't posted in almost 3 months! I've been so busy, and so sick. Goodness. I had the flu for 6 weeks, then got hit with gastro, then Jordan got sick, and we've not really fully recovered yet. Not being able to take drugs prolongs it all so much, but this girl is so worth it.

It's been a big few months. We had another 4d scan at 30 weeks which showed a healthy chubby little girl who looked so much like her big brother. Honestly, at 30 weeks I expected her to be a little bit skinny but she has the chubbiest cheeks and looks like a newborn!

We had our scan at 33 weeks to check the position of the placenta and I've got 8cm on one side and 13cm on the other side - we only needed a clearance of 2-3cm! So natural birth it is for us :) At the scan she was measured. My dates were 33 weeks exactly, her head measured for 34 weeks, her belly for 35 weeks, and her legs 36 weeks!!! Unbelievable. What a leggy little thing :) I'm just glad it wasn't her head that measured the biggest!! And the estimate of her weight it approx 5pounds, already... eek! Hopefully she wont be overdue.

I saw my doc regarding the results, and one thing they did find was that the umbillical 'ratio' (ratio to what exactly I'm not sure, but anyway) is within the normal range but at the high end, and if that ratio goes up it could prevent proper blood flow to the baby, which could inhibit her growth. All is probably absolutely perfect, but it's something they want to check anyway. So my 36 week appt was meant to be next week but Sandie wanted me to have an early one tomorrow (35 weeks) so they can check to see if bub has grown over the last two weeks. As with everything, right from the very start, I have absolute peace that this little girl will be absolutely perfect. And I know that if she's born early, she will be healthy and chubby because I've seen her! And she will be just fine. God has had His hand on this pregnancy even before I knew I was pregnant, and all will be fine.

And to be truthful, now I'm 35 weeks, I really don't mind her coming early :) I've been waiting a long time for this precious little butterfly. Praise God.