Wednesday, September 29, 2010

new beginnings

It's been two months since my last post. An incredibly busy two months.

After my last post, I ended up going into labour that night and went to the hospital the next morning (the 29th). And after a long hard (and another posterior!!) labour of 14 hours, our sweet little girl Lucinda Rose was born. A little girl. Finally. After losing 3 little princesses, I finally have one in my arms. And she's mine. All mine. So much love for this slippery little thing. She was big. 9pd 3oz or 4.185kgs! And she was posterior for most of the delivery, right up until she crowned actually. Which made for a long, slow progressing, incredibly painful, hard labour. And the next one WILL be cut out. Or I will have an epidural at the start and feel nothing. It really was the most painful thing, gosh I thought Jordan's labour was painful. At least with his by the time it was time to push, it didn't hurt at all. With Lucy, as I was pushing I felt like my pelvis was being ripped apart, my coxyx (?) ached for days afterwards, and it felt like her head was grinding against my bones as she was starting to make her way through. Oh my goodness. I SCREAMED. Literally screamed my way through the actual birth.

But you know what? She. was. worth. it. And she came out so different looking to Jordan. She was a little bigger but had all this dark hair!! And had no trouble breathing, she just lay on my chest, bleeting like a little lamb, and looking at me with absolute peace. Like she was saying 'I'm here now, it's ok, I've been waiting for you too' it was so emotional. I couldn't believe it. That is the addictive part of having babies. That first moment together. Nothing else like it.

Still want the next one cut out though :P