So 5 sleeps to go before my 12 week scan. It's on monday next week. I will be exactly 12 weeks. I - am - scared. I haven't felt any movement for a number of days, and the food aversion/nausea is pretty much gone. But still very tired. I so need to see my baby. To be reassured it's still alive. To know it's little heart is still beating. I just can't see the 12 week scan. I can't imagine it in my head. I just can't. I'm constantly trying but it wont happen. I haven't had a succcessful one since Jordan 4 years ago. This is doing my head in.
God give me faith.